Have you ever told someone close to you some of your deepest secrets? Did you trust that person that you told those stories to? most of us do right? it will be a friend..or family member. that you gain that trust and feel like ok now I can finally let some of this shit out to someone. you carrie things in your head on your shoulder for so long right then to let it out to someone feels so great! and you think now you have a person that you can talk to how great does that feel right?
then you go hang out with other friends and other family members and someone blur out what you told that special person. either that laugh at you..look at you crazy…whisper or ever talk shit and yell it back at you !
WHAT GOES ON IN YOUR HEAD WHEN INFORMATION ABOUT YOU GET OUT! YOUR HELLA PISS YOUR LIKE WHY DID THEY TELL THIS OR THAT PERSON! HOW THE HELL DID THEY TELL SOMEONE ELSE AND NOT GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO TELL THEM?
WHAT YOU ARE DOING WHEN YOU TELL YOUR SECRETS AND THOUGH TO PEOPLE IS GIVING THEM Ammunition BuLLETS FOR THEM TO USE AGAINST YOU. YOU MAY TELL SOMEONE SOMETHING THAT HURTS YOU BUT THAT PERSON THINK ITS A JOKE AND TELL OTHERS YOUR PAIN TO MAKE FUN OF YOU….
I LEARN TO NOT DO THAT NO MORE. IM NOT EXPRESSING WHY ANYTHING OR EVEN LETTING YOU IN MY BRAIN. IM NOT TELLING YOU ABOUT MY RELATION..STRESS..ANXIETY..GOOD TIME BAD TIME NOTHING NO MORE. FOR ME TO TELL AND HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH SOMONE AND THOSE SAME WORDS COME OUT SOMEONE ELSE MOUTH THAT I DON’T TALK TO LIKE THAT FUCKED ME ALL UP! …. IM JUST LIKE I DON’T GET IT?… WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT…
I KNOW WHY.. BECAUSE YOUR NOT ON MY SIDE… YOU NOT TEAM SKYE YOU AGAINST ME . YOUR IN COMPETITION WITH ME . YOU WANT TO CAUSE ME PAIN. SO I SAY FUCK ALL THAT AND CUT THEM OFF. NO NEED TO EXPLAIN WHY U DID IT NO NEED TO GO THROUGH THE I DID’NT SAY OR DO IT…IM JUST DONE.
Don’t give people your close thoughts and share your pain with people. really know and trust who u let in your circle. we be happy to have people around us we dont think right. but when your mental health is on the line you have to only think about you and what you want! fuck how they feel or if they need to talk. they don’t get to waste our time no more!
Three boys and me plus anxiety! 